How could you?

I was perfectly fine
drinking my sorrows away.
You came bearing light.
It was the dawn of a new day.

You gave me hope.
Showed me a way.
But in the end,
all you did was betray.

You took away the hope.
Shattered all the dreams.
Just for a prettier face
& shinier things it seems.

You made such promises.
Turned my I's to We's.
What did he have that I didn't?
Diamonds on his P?

There were signs, red flags even.
But I chose to trust and ignore.
I was warned by JD, Mahak
and many more.

How could you hate your own last name
so much that anything else would do?
All you had to do was wait.
I would've given mine to you.

You've made me hate my favourite bands
Guns n roses, Aerosmith, Nirvana, Linkin Park, The beatles.
Their songs remind me of you.
Makes me want to die a little.

Sleep does not come easy.
The bed feels like a coffin.
In every drop of tear I shed,
I can see your face laughing.

Five Two used to mean "Volim Te".
You said it to me, I to you.
Four Three also adds up to seven.
You don't need any explanation on that do you?

And now You say sorry,
trying to apologize.
I simply cannot forgive.
Cannot forget the lies.

I hope you're ready
for what's coming your way.
What goes around comes around.
Isn't that what they say

Let's talk about money

There was a movie that came out in 2003, called "The Core". It wasn't great. The storyline was questionable, the acting was sub-par, the CGI was okayish for the period. So why am I talking about a 14 year old strictly average movie in this post? Well, in this movie the plot revolves around a bunch of scientists that have to make a 'car'........well a vehicle that will be able to take them to the center of the earth. It will drill through miles and miles and miles of rock, iron and many other materials and then land them at the 'Core' of the planet. Well, I watched the movie and when they reached the core, there wasn't a big ball of money. But I thought that money makes the world go round, so shouldn't there have been a big ball of it right in the middle?..... hmm, maybe that oversight is why the movie kinda tanked.

From the 26 odd years of experience I've gathered on this earth, money maybe the single most powerful thing out there. It can buy you admiration of your fellow peers, all the comforts and luxuries that you fancy, even jealousy from those with less of it than you. It can even make you look better, 'cause of course a $250 haircut is gonna look better than a $5 one. But that enough? Is having shiny things and being surrounded by pretty people all that important? Do other things not matter?

Picture this: You meet a guy who is wearing a fancy suit, drives a fancy car, lives in an expensive house, and just cause of this you're supposed to be impressed by him? Well, I'm not. I would rather judge anyone by their brains and heart than the size of their wallets. I mean think about it, the rich dude could've made his money dealing in smuggling, dealing drugs, kidnapping children, or he may just have been lucky and was born in a rich family. This is why I don't care how much money someone has. Remember, a smart person will turn 5 to 5000, and someone not, will turn 50000000 into ashes.

I'm also glad that I wasn't born into the super rich. Cause at the end of the day, I know that the people that are with me, are here not cause of the money, they're here cause they value me for who I am as a person and will be here through the best and worst of times. And for that I'm grateful. Grateful for not having shiny things.