All I do is smile

I Drive the pain deep inside
Try to pass out the night and wait for the day
I try to keep the failures aside
But they keep coming in my way

I try to keep my friends close
But they have decided to part ways
When fallen in pits I tried but never rose
seems in my paths an eternal failure lays

I keep quite enduring all pain
waiting for success to cross paths
but I watch in utter disdain
as my success is locked behind the bars

I try to remain calm and composed
when my loved ones leave
for them I am being disposed
and this for them is a relief

And when i cry
i quickly calm myself
and wash up my eyes
Still agony sneaks near via stealth

I loose all hope
I loose all those who were near
I see no scope
Still its a smile that I wear...

A joy experienced never before

This noon when I revisited
the little earthen pot
that I've daily refilled
for so many years;
I saw a pigeon
quenching its thirst
with the elixir,
pecking its beak
at the fragile surface,
and the pearls
that dropped back from its beak.

Soon it was joined
by many of its mates
and they all drank merrily
and flew away.

I don't know why
but this gave me
a joy experienced never before
The joy of helping
a creation of the almighty.